hope you enjoy.

You know i had a topic for this blog about a day ago but i have forgotten it. but i would just like to say how the world is sooooo diverse. like some things like the sky on a cloudless day above the sea with boats skimming through the water as you lye on the beach getting a tan its soooooo beautiful and you can feel sooooo happy like its amazing the things that can just make you feel soooo happy, the things that make your heart just feel like its welling up in your chest like its about to explode. i would like you for a second now and think about what made you feel like that...... if you like you could comment me and tell me but just for about a minute think of what last made you feel like that.


for me the last time i felt like that was when one of the guys who ushely doesn't talk to me said hi back when i said hi (and no not in a romantic way at all) just it was so nice i have no idea why, but it was just such a small thing but it made me soooo happy.
But then you can and im sorry for even saying this after such a nice thing but you can have such bad moments or days that you feel soooooooooooooooooo horrible and just like you don't want to see any one or do anything but cure up into a little ball and cry or just think. now think of that in contrast to our beautiful day at the beach and its like how could two things sooooo different live in the same world the same person even.

Like Think of this:


In comparison to this:


There so different and its just so strange to think about.
and then theres things like war and love there just so odd. things like singing, and sound of sirens, all these things and yet we still live. how can we take it its so remarkable.

History

This is a remarkable blog post.

I have been doing history and at the moment im doing the rise of Hitler and the second world war, and I'm just thinking as i read my book, What in gods name are they fighting for? they all have land and food and oil, and if they don't have enough they should talk to a country that has a bit more then them and try work something out, i mean if i can work that out don't you think the rulers of some of the biggest counters in the world could? but no they cant they have to go invade another country.
It also makes me sad and upset that they could do that, its just so sad and silly, they killed something like 600,000 people in Italy or something and that was only part of it that wasn't even part of the bit picture.
Like when some one goes to war, to the government or the Sargent or the person in charge there just another person who will probably lose there life but for there family and friend its huge, like so many people will be sad and crying when there sons and husbands and dads go off to war but they wont know how bad it hurts until mabey after the war, they get that call saying "oh very sorry but your husband/dad/son/brother has died and all we ached was to lose or gain a little land or oil. that we could have got it was talked to the other people, but he died for a good cause. sorry." its like what is the point????

Up date

Hello, sorry i haven't been on in a while, but I thought i would come on and tell you how I'm going lol.

so As you may or not know I have started going to Mt Hobson Middle school. And the people well some of them are cool as like, Bill, And, The Pot men and flower. and the works fine in the morning but some of the afternoon things are a bit boring and stuff. and i don't know why it may not have anything to do with the school seeing though its a Friday night but for some unknown reason i fell really bad. like my heart has a big pice of lead on it and theres like a sand bag on my head (not in a sick way) but i don't know.

my friend has this thing and like he thinks i like him but i don't not in the way he thinks but for me sometimes i feel if i tell the guy i only like him as a friend he might go away but with this guy its the opposite but i did it so that he thought i did and now hes gone, and i miss him cos i really did like him as a firend but a really good friend but i did it rong and now we dont talk and (couIgh coucrygh) i am sad. i wish i hadn't do what i did. and i wish he would talk to me like we us to. That may be helping me fell bad.

Some old stuff of mine

I want your number babe. you make me whole. Even though I just meet you. You make me fell like no one ells has or will. You make me fell like there is no one ells in the world except me and you and that's how I want it to be forever. I know one day I'm going to die but it will be ok if I'm with you. I will always love you, I will NEVER cheat on you my boi. I couldn't express how much I do. I always want you next to me if you die I want to go with you just because I wouldn't be able to live without you. I just guess I'm trying to say...


I LOVE YOU
I smile when I think of you,
I frown when my thoughts don't start.
I laugh when were together,
I long when were apart.
I need you for all future,
I wanted you for all past.
I love you when were with each other
I die when we break up,
I want you, I need you
so don't break my hart.


♥Hugs make the world go around♥
♥They also make me happy☺
♥Especially from you.,
♥To me you are the world,
♥With how good u are at Hugging
♥Also your body being so comfy to lie on
♥And how ever one loves you and wants to be your friend.
♥And most of all.,.,, Being so sweet,kind and nice to ever one.
♥I just want to be with you forever.
♥And even though i never got to do the things i wanted with you I still want to say this:
♥I'm Sorry for ever thing i did to you.
♥And i want you SO BAD And i just want to tell you before you go,.,
♥I LOVE YOU,. and always will.
For the people i care for greatly. xoxoxx

9th Febuary +

SOOOO sorry, lol. this is hard as.

but today i will try giving a good one.

I have found out how remarkable girls can be, in the way of how bitchy they are. Ok i was in the bathroom getting changed, and this girl goes out and like the minute she is out of ear shot the other girls in the bathroom started say things like hay do you like her? she acts a bit (a long the lines of) like she better then us and all this stuff and i was just visiting for the day but from what i had seen she was really nice and some of the other girls weren't the nicest. so i have said i will try and be less bitchy.

anyway something nicely remarkable as i said i went on a trip with a school that i might go to and most of the people were really nice and well coming and looked after me and it was really nice to see how people do that and just be nice it was really.... nice.

5th Feb

I Have read a few of these remarkable year blogs, and some of them are really rather remarkable. and i think I know I'm a bit late but I think I might like to try doing it.

So I went to look at a new school today, and every one was really nice and friendly and it seemed great, but i don't know ah. the school was nice and my biggest problem was the uniform. and at the school you could do NCEA by your self and it was cool there was one other girl doing it and you got to work by your self and it was cool as, i really don't know what to say but it was cool.


But what ever i do i have this feeling in my stomach like sinking i don't know. like its wrong and i always have it.

so worst blog but i will try have one for you tomorrow thats better.

One life.

I have been thinking, as you do, and when i was watching love actually and (no i didn't realize love was all around, or there is more to life then money or something like that) i realize that (in the scene when the ex-rock star see thats the person he loves is the fat guy) you only get one life and even if you don't you never remember your next life. What you do with that life like the rock star was alone except for the fat guy and its like shit, he could have had a completely different life. like he could have become a father and had a family and started doing like some other job and just done everything completely differently and then i think of some of the people i know, most of them really smart doing school ahead and going to uni and stuff and i think what if they had done school normal or i didn't know them or anything. and then like people who go away or people who are like bums or people who have lots someone and can never love again and its like but your life could be so different if you just did one thing wrong and i think of what would they be doing or be if i had never met them what would that change in them. or if i had never met them what would happen to me. I have said that i am going to change and i am, I'm going to work harder and try and be better in life. and i just hope that when I'm older i can bring up my child so that they can live life to the full.

Teachers

I have had a revaluation, teachers are truly great. They are like when your in a tribe and there is a tribe alder and he passes knowledge through the generations, and these days there are so many more people in the world we have to have a lot more teachers and because there is so much that we know. But people don't appreciate it they think its something that they have to do. But when you were in a tribe it would be a privilege to learn from them. the information that is taught its a gift. But people don't see that they just see this older person telling them something that may not be to interesting and it just pisses me off. I'm going to try and listen more and learn more. Save what you learn. you will need it.

Inspiration

I have been reading my friends blog, and he is doing a "Remarkable Year Challenge" and it sorta made me realize that there is soooo much in life that is well Remarkable, like at the moment all i am really doing is reading and talking on msn.
Ok so just because im so boring im going to tell you what i do most day:
1:00pm wake up get food(breakfast) wonder about/ sun bath/ read/shower
8:00pm lunch time.
8:30pm computer (MSN, watch a movie, bebo, blog)
10:00pm start reading book.
2:00-3:00am go to sleep
and then i wake up at 1pm again (a lot of sleep :))
pretty boring i know. and i was thinking how could or would i be able to do that "Remarkable Year Challenge"? like there isn't much in my day, and seeing though i do the same thing every day how could i find something remarkable about it? And then i thought there are thing about my day that are remarkable to me, like for me yesterday i hola hoped for 30 minutes with out stopping or dropping it once. and that in its self is pretty good. and also with the book im reading it may seem silly but there are things about it that are incredible for me like just the story for me is really interesting and for me i love story's and some times i get attached and all this stuff which i could go on about for quite a while. but there are so many incredible things and i just wanted to say that because i just realized it. and wanted to share and thank my friend because he has helped me to see this. THANK YOU

hope this says something of interest. xxxxx

really lame questions

Be honest no matter what.

[One] Who was your last text from?
Nick

[Two] Where was your picture taken?
I don't have one

[Three] What is your middle name?
Helen

[Four] Your current relationship status?
Single

[Five] Does your crush like you back?
I don't have one

[Six] Whats your current mood?
complacent

[Seven] What's your mum's name?
Joan

[Eight] What color shirt are you wearing?
gray/blak

[Nine] Whats Your Race?
white

[Ten] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
yaah

[Eleven] Do you like drinking tea?
sumtimes

[Twelve] Did you ever have a near death experience?
don't think so

[Thirteen] Something you do a lot?
Bebo

[Fourteen] What type of underwear are you going to wear for the next week?
oh yeah cause i clearly have a plan of what ones to wear each days?

[Fifteen] Who can you tell anything to?
my sissy

[Sixteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
i don't know anyone personally, but "Hillary Rodham Clinton"

[Seventeen] When was the last time you cried?
prob yesterday reading sad book

[Eighteen] When was the last time you laughed so much you cried?
no idea

[Nineteen] If you had a super power what would it be?
well i would love to be a vampire

[Twenty] What's the first things you notice about the opposite sex?
don't sure?

[Twenty-two] What's your biggest secret?
I have no idea i don't have one

[Twenty-three] Favorite color?
black

[Twenty-five] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
Yea

[Twenty-six] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
about to eat apple crumble

[Twenty-seven] Do you speak any other language?
not properly

[Twenty-eight] What's your favourite smell?
boy, na i don't know

[Twenty-nine] Describe your life in one word what would it be?
average

[Thirty] Have you ever kissed in the rain?
yeah

[Thirty-two] What are you thinking about right now?
about the story listing to alot

[Thirty-three] What should you be doing?
prob work

[Thirty-four] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
Bella or nick

[Thirty-six] Do you like working in the yard?
no

[Thirty-seven] If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
smith

[Thirty-eight] Do you act differently around the person you like?
Yea

[Thirty-nine] What is your natural hair color?
Brown

[Forty] Who was the last person to make you cry?
not sure