The year.

I was look at some pictures of 2008, like near the beginning. And in one of them I'm wearing this white jumper. And I lots the jumper in the 2nd term of the year. But I was thinking of how much I have changed, and I LOVED that jumper sooooo much it was like my favorite piece of clothing and now I haven't thought about it much at all. I mean I know its just a piece of clothing but like thats with other things to. Like this time last year I would be thinking about my friends party and thinking about what I should wear because I think I still had a thing for him, and now I don't really think of him that much (which is sad cos he used to be a good friend and I barely see him now) but really, and now my schools shut down and this time last year I was like counting how many days I still have left of holidays. now I'm sad I didn't like want to go to school, that I didn't spend time with people and that I haven't kept in contact with people. I love all the people so much that it's so sad for me to leave, and now I have to find a new school. And make new friends, I think I might go to Senior College next year so if I went to a new school it would only be for a year. I might be home schooling now. So thats not to bad, but I might have to do all these after school things which I'm not to keen on but maybe it will be good. I have changed a lot since the beginning of last year. Grown as a person and in my hight. I hope I've board you enough by now that you would have stop reading so that I don't get to imbarest. Theres this guy right, (and no its not like and I really like him) and hes very interesting. he has like this big secret that could be life threatening. And he says hes heartless and he doesn't fell anything, but then he kisses someone and says he did it for there enjoyment, but I cant get that. I mean I understand why he might not want to do it at all but, and then he says stuff and I don't know it just confuses me. I don't know what to do. but yet I'm still his friend. it has been a funny year, maybe later I will right more about it.

Hay ya back home

Today was the first day back at school.
it was ok better then I thought it would be. I saw every one well, not everyone. it was a but odd. I was really silly I don't know why just a bit Scary. I got quite a lot of work done but I don't know, I just felt down.

In Australia I told you about that boy I was texting in Aussie. (If you don't know about look in other blog) and then he said text me when you get back, so I texted him when I got back and when i had gotten money on my phone. He texted back and he was like having a party so he said text me tomorrow and we will talk, so i texted him the day after and he didn't text me back then about a week later (5 days) I texted him again.

Then the next day I went to this audition and where I went for an audition was were I did another play not to long ago and I just remembered this guy I really liked and then my friend got dumped and then she started having a "thing" with him so I couldn't do anything and I just cried. and then my ex boy friend was also at the audition and I just was good. and then when I got to school I saw my other ex and it just hasn't been a good time.

So boys are a mystery and I will never know how to handle them. I do hope the guy texts back though.

Love you xoxoxoxoox