One life.

I have been thinking, as you do, and when i was watching love actually and (no i didn't realize love was all around, or there is more to life then money or something like that) i realize that (in the scene when the ex-rock star see thats the person he loves is the fat guy) you only get one life and even if you don't you never remember your next life. What you do with that life like the rock star was alone except for the fat guy and its like shit, he could have had a completely different life. like he could have become a father and had a family and started doing like some other job and just done everything completely differently and then i think of some of the people i know, most of them really smart doing school ahead and going to uni and stuff and i think what if they had done school normal or i didn't know them or anything. and then like people who go away or people who are like bums or people who have lots someone and can never love again and its like but your life could be so different if you just did one thing wrong and i think of what would they be doing or be if i had never met them what would that change in them. or if i had never met them what would happen to me. I have said that i am going to change and i am, I'm going to work harder and try and be better in life. and i just hope that when I'm older i can bring up my child so that they can live life to the full.